nikkihall

New Beginings I woke up today, with a great feeling inside. Thinking about how we first talked, warms me up inside. I am in awe, of your compassion. And I admire you,for your stregnth. For dealing with the situations, that other's would turn away. Your inner light shines through, in all I've seen you do. Oh how I thank god, for letting me meet you. So thank you for being the person, that you are inside. My budding feelings for you,seem very hard to hide. I am trying to take things slow, and not get carried away. But you being the person that you are, I am easily swept away. So happy birthday baby, from the bottom of my heart. And

After a few months of being tied down to one man I find myself single again. Never again will I try to change me to suit your needs. Never again will I try to dress like you want me to. Never again will I watch what I say. Never again will I walk on eggshells worried about what kinda mood you are in. I love a big guy, as a matter of fact I preffer it. All I feel now is pity for you, pity that you cannot be happy with the person you are. Pity that you have to make the one's you love feel like shit because of your"FATBOY" complex. Sad you can't look in the mirror and like what you see. Sad that you can't ever have a good relationship w

On Fragile wings my heart soars Never knowing when I have to watch what I say Wondering if you really feel the way you say you do towards me Or relationship spanding over a long period Insecurity, I wish it will go away One minute feeling strong, and the next, wondering if there's something wrong When will I feel secure When will I feel intactness, of this fragile relationship Tired of the games we play with one another When will come the day when on fragile wings, my heart soars, no more

       I look in your eyes and what do I see,       My little piece of heaven smiling back at me.       I can't believe when I look at you,       That you've grown so big.       So grown-up and getting to make life's choices.       I hope I laid the foundation right,       I hope I did you well,       I am nothing near perfect,       But this, to you, I can tell,       I will always love you,       Even when you put mIf anyone hurts you, or makes you feel blue,       Say the word, and momma will come protect you.       I will weather the storm,       I will throw myself in harms way.       To keep my baby smili

I try to get away This relationship we have consumes all I try to move on Something keeps calling me back Some cosmic force keeps me chained to your side I breathe you in everytime my lungs expand I see you everytime I look to the stars I feel whole in your arms I feel incomplete without you I hope for the day I complete you I long for the day you are content I want to be your everything So for completeness, hope,longing, and love....... I'll try this again One more time I'll try this again

Can you take the pressure Can you take the pain Can you handle all if this mess inside of your brain Pressure is so tight, deep inside your skull What can I you do to stop this mess Are my friends really my friends For  who really knows, will I have to guess Peer pressure to drink Peer pressure to do drugs Are my friends, really my friends Or mearly thugs Friends are supposed to lift you up, and encourage you through All the bad times in life that we go through Friends will not put you in harm's way A true friend will stick by you and never let you stray. So if you have to question your friend's intentions Maybe it's time to h

Driving to the studio, my heart starts to beat The excitment takes over me I can't think, the feelings overwelm me I park the car, my body start to shiver I sit in the Piercer's chair, and bare my flesh. I see the needle, endorfins immediately take effect I feel the puncture,how eurotic as my skin is pierced. I see the shine of the jewelry, as the piercer put's  it into my bloody flesh Oh how I love the pain of the act I need to get pierced again, thats a matter of fact

I give you this rose to, you a token of my caring Most think this kind of rose means death or distruction I think it's the most beautiful of all The petals so dark, like the mischieviousness inside me It is not damning, it's not horrible, the petal's  beautiful scheen The fragrance, like a piece of heaven, and I'm giving you a slice It represents the feelings I have for you,and representing now A give this rose to you, mysweet, a symbol of my vow

She wakes up unable to move Her limbs stretched to the breaking point Hands and legs bound to a bed by straps She tries to scream, only a squeek escapes Leather ballgag muffles everything She tries to struggle she cant move an inch She wonders how she got here, last night nothing but a fog Only bits and pieces if the night before She remembers the bar,she remembers her friends She remembers the dancefloor,  she recalls the man Dancing with him till last call, he orders and gets her last drink She wakes up in torments cgamber Beware when accepting a drink from a stranger GHB= The date rape drug